Procrastination is another thief of my life. After an unproductive day has past, what do I have to show for the day’s activity? I have reminders that comfortable surroundings were not as important to me as whatever entertained me – the comforts of home tend to be hindered by laziness. Procrastination is a first cousin to laziness. Hygge truly is the best comfort within the home, but I will never receive the comfort that I enjoy without an effort to maintain my home’s hygge quality (see previous post: The Joy of Less). I find that there is so much mental confusion accrued by leaving off tasks while seeking entertainment, and this increases laziness. I admire people who can face the day getting right to their to do list. Spiritual, financial, and emotional success has always been on a you get what you give basis, and, as some say, cleanliness is next to godliness.
The real problem, often, is the desire to do whatever makes me happy for the moment. I believe that I will not procrastinate for long, because the day is young. Unfortunately, after a seeming short time, the day has ticked away, and the part of me that says: “Just do it later,” still believes that I will. When I began my journey to mental health, I fought every effort to stop wallowing in my sorrows, because it gave me an excuse to enjoy self abuse. The more that I thought about the past, the more miserable I became, and letting go seemed like I was giving a pardon from death row. I began to notice that dwelling in the mental confusion caused the same dark turmoil to become my tomorrows, not allowing me to see reality very well. This level of thinking had become comfort to me. But, seeing others struggling with their own world caused me to change the lifestyle that I was living.
That way of life causes clutter to surround your mind as it piles up around you. I have begun a new way of thinking. The phrase: ‘out of site, out of mind’ does ring true. The clear headedness that comes from organization helps to restore mental balance, and it is easier to create new habits than to break bad ones. I do have enough organizational skills to up my game. I know that I am not alone in the battle of mental health, and I would love to influence others to set goals and observe the positive changes on the road to recovery.
This new year, I will implement a schedule for each day to keep track of the daily tasks, and, having lived this lifestyle before, I know how successful this is. Looking at yourself in the middle of the pain is often hard to do, but doing so is the only honest way to rebuild from the past.